In Kagan Goh’s debut memoir, he recounts his struggles with manic depression, breaking the silence around mental illness. From the welfare office to the hospital ward and many places in between, Goh struggles to discern the difference between mental health breakdowns and spiritual breakthroughs. Facing his experiences with courage and authenticity, Goh shares his memories of family altercations, being pushed to the brink of living on the street, and visits to his psychiatrist. He explores his diagnosis of bipolar mood disorder not only as a medical condition but as a spiritual emergence—a vehicle for personal growth, healing and transcendence.